I don't know where Alan and I are right now in our relationship. There have been so many changes in our lives recently and more yet to come that we seem to have settled into being husband and wife and clinging to each other to weather the storms and upheavals.
I miss my kink, I miss my submission, and gods know I miss my sex. But I don't seem to have the energy for it at the moment and I think that's okay. I try to remind myself that everything ebbs and flows like the tides.
I still serve a bit, just not as much or in the same way. I've stopped veiling my hair for now, I'm not even coloring or cutting it.. no energy to put toward it. He seems to understand and has given me space.
We haven't talked about our relationship as it is or what it might be in the future. I'd like us to bring back the few things we kept, my serving him, veiling my hair for him, and being cuffed to the bed as I sleep. We'll see what the future holds. For now I think we're okay as we are. I just hope he can wait for me to make it back.
