i miss my Sir. i miss the feel of His lips on mine.
i miss His style of play. He's a little more sensual and gentle than Alan and is full of praise when i've done well. i need that. i need brutality to be tempered with gentleness.Alan can be savage and i love it... but there are times when i need tenderness and it's difficult for him to overcome his own need to be savage at times.
It's been very interesting watching Alan grow and enjoy experimenting with his own dominance. Sometimes i fight it a little... fight against the dominance he wants to assert over me. But i know i'd be jealous if he wanted to dominate someone else. i'm such a dork sometimes.
i'm still trying to overcome my jealousy issues. It's difficult but not impossible.
i was surprised by my physical response to Mistress J on Saturday. We hugged and i kissed her cheek a few times, wanting to kiss her lips. i don't have that sort of a response to too many women. Something new to think about.
i wish Sir was home now. i hope He and i will be able to play soon after He gets back because i think this coming weekend, Alan will be waxing my cunt. i think Master would enjoy the surprise. i'd also like to show Him the new toy Alan made for us. :-)
