What is going on?

I'm sitting here confused. In the last two weeks she has gradually stopped being as responsive to my texts. She no longer texts asking for permission to call. In the last week she has responded to maybe two of my texts. None of them in the last three days. She's not talking to Alan either. Why?

If she's lost interest or has decided we're not a good fit I would understand that. But please give me the courtesy of telling me. I would give the same courtesy to you.

But maybe I'm overreacting and jumping to conclusions. It's easy to do when you're left wondering.

I thought we'd found someone who would become part of our family. I hoped that would be the case. She told us that's what she wanted.

I'm trying to keep the faith but I'm beginning to pull back a bit and wrapping a bit of armor around my heart. I want to trust but it is difficult.

We'll see how things go this coming week. We need to talk about the relationship to be sure we're all on the same page. If we are then we must discuss expectations on all sides.

Selfish?

We spent a fabulous weekend with our girlfriend and it really was fabulous. I didn't have any twinges of jealousy. Honestly, it was really great to see Alan and her get to connect.  There were a couple of times where I felt a little like a third wheel and maybe we should all have individual time together as couples too. But I didn't feel negative or jealous about any of that. 

 The thing I did have a problem with was during playtime Saturday night. The energy between the three of us was intense. She and I are evil sprites  and work well together as a giggly sadistic team. Oh did we have fun playing with Alan and each other. But then I ended up getting very aroused and didn't get any sexual follow up like I'm used to. I

was so turned on that I'm certain I could have orgasmed, easily for a change. I guess I'm angry about the missed opportunity. I understand why he didn't want to. It would have been unfair to her since her husband is not okay with her having sex with Alan. I agree but it's unfair to me to be denied sex and sexual satisfaction.

 We are going to have to discuss this because I can't keep going like this. I haven't orgasmed for a few months and to have missed that opportunity is a big deal for my sex life.

 I feel like a selfish jerk because I'm making an issue of it and insisting on my pleasure. But I don't think I should have to suppress my needs either. I'm frustrated with this one thing.