So I overreacted to M's phone silence. All is well and things between the three of us are going really well. She told us lst weekend that she loves us. I felt so overjoyed to finally be able to tell her I love her. I'd been waiting for her to be ready to not only say it but to hear it. I felt complete when A told her he loved her.
We went to a picnic put on by our kinky group and had lots of fun. I got to take pup Freki for a run/walk and it was really fun. I never knew I'd enjoy pet play like iI do but I love my pup. He's a good pup and the affection we share is just so yummy. We played a little bit with a guy at the picnic that A ordered me to go say hello to because I'd been drooling over him. I think I found a new playmate. He gives amazing reactions.
On Friday a longtime kinky friend of mine confessed that she would do anything for me. I feel overwhelmed by the level of devotion she expressed. I don't feel like I've earned it, maybe I don't feel worthy of it. I feel as though she's courting me as a submissive to a dominant. It's flattering and she is a very sweet girl and kinda cute too. But is there enough of me to go around? Can I sustain another relationship? Especially since we're only a few short months into our relationship with M? L would be mine alone more than likely, if I went with whatever is possibly happening.
At the same time I'm being courted as a dominant in my own right, I'm feeling more submissive toward A. I want to be a better submissive to him. I crave to serve him better and with less sass or hesitation.
Oy vey! When it rains it pours and I've never felt so much more like my genuine self.
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