Her

He's going to see her, his girlfriend.  Yet he won't see me.  Jealous?  Yes.  Lonely too.  He doesn't understand that I need him too.  It's not fair.  No kidding, I know life isn't fair.  But he's my dominant, my only dominant and he won't see me and I can't ask because that's pushing.

I'm supposed to take care of myself and fulfill myself. Indefinitely I guess. He won't say for how long. He probably doesn't know.

It's a decision he made after having had enough of me, my moods, and my constant arguing.  We have to work on our relationship before we see each other again.  So I'm lonely. I'm jealous of her. Of the time she gets with him as his girlfriend. I'm secondary to her and his wife.  I'm his submissive.  No more no less. I'm supposed to be fun.

I feel like a doll on a shelf when he says certain things. Sometimes I think I should find another dominant who wants all of me, not just the fun bits.  Maybe I'm being unfair. I'm just not sure who I'm being unfair to.