Duh!

I had a 2x4 moment today while reading through my s-type only e-mail list. It was while reading a response to a question about how to separate one's submission from one's daily life that it happened. The responder stated that there are so many things we do each day that are acts of service, though we may not see them as such, they still are.

He has been saying much the same thing to me for the past six months, just not in as many words. It seems to have been a gradual process that ended with a sudden "Duh! Now I get it!"

It felt like I'd zoomed way out and had a bird's eye view of the bigger picture of my life with the Boss.

My working full-time has had some very positive benefits that far outweigh the perceived negatives. The Boss has told me over and over that by working full-time I've taken some serious stress off his shoulders. He no longer worries about what might happen to me and our youngest daughter should something happen to him. He has a lot more money to make ends meet with. But more than that, a benefit I'm not sure he's made the connection to, his blood pressure. It's always been high and has never really been controllable with medication, at one point they had him on three different medications which left him with very little quality of life because he was so sleepy all the time. He'd stopped taking them all because he didn't like the side effects or the cost. Just a few months ago he saw his doctor and his blood pressure was normal, all by itself! The next visit did see his blood pressure a bit elevated and the doctor put him on one medication. The next visit, that one medication was controlling his BP just fine. I think all that stress and worry were making his already high BP uncontrollable.

So, while I may miss being able to serve him as a housewife, cooking, cleaning, & greeting him at the door when he gets home from work, I'm still serving him. My service has just changed and it's far more valuable to him right now than my housekeeping services.