I've really got to say, it feels good to have some self-confidence. My newfound self-confidence was put to the test yesterday and passed with flying colors. Master and I played with a lady of my acquaintance.
I had not one pang of jealousy, not one twitch of feeling inadequate as I watched Master play with her and take pleasure from her. It was a wonderfully warm and sharing time for all of us. In the past I would have spent the entire time convincing myself that Master would come to prefer the other over me because I would have been sure that everything about her was superior to me.
All my life I've felt insecure and for the first time I feel secure and it feels good.
